how can I see my admin application??
You can’t, once it disappears it means the admins and moderators are looking at it and deciding on whether or not you’d make a good guard.
thnx for telling 
Just a side note, they take forever to review an application because they probably recieve a lot of applications I think. =Month or so for reply
I know that cuz I 've been reading a lot of posts :).But thanks for telling(I did not think It will take THAT long XD).